Dearest faithful and brave followers,
I added brave because where I am about to go isn’t pretty. Thank you for journeying alongside me through this unexpected and unpleasant season. This past 2 weeks have taken a drastic turn where the intensity of my pain has increased while simultaneously my energy and hope have plummeted. The hardest part is I thought the finish line was close (I met with Dr. Singh this past Tuesday after 6 days in the hospital and expected a clean, quick fix) and instead was met with a long journey ahead. After 6 months of chronic pain, I am empty and have nothing left but tears. I no longer have the strength or will to keep going. I have come to the place where I feel like the paralytic in the Bible and unless Jesus heals me, I will not live, but will just be. I have never been at this place before where I am completely dependent on the Lord. I am learning how to REALLY ask for help. My dear friend Annie wrote the update below on Wed (3/28). My dear friend Sarah wrote a prayer Thurs (3/29). I am asking those who wish to pray for me and Jack to use the prayers below. For those of you interested in taking a specific time of the day to pray daily these 2 prayers for Jack and me please email my mom, Sue, at sueknits@comcast.net with the time (i.e. 7AM or lunchtime, etc.) She can compile a list of who is praying for us when. There is something really powerful about having a prayer said in unison over you. I don’t have strength to check my email, so all I ask is that you pray. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
***This is Annie Michaels, Becky's friend from Chicago ! I got to be with her this week. She's at home today and looking good, but since her energy is precious these days I know it's sometimes hard for her to correspond with everyone she would like to, so I thought I'd add a quick update to her blog for you all. Thank you for your continued prayer and support in all sorts of ways. It is so, so appreciated!
Becky has had a very full and long week.
She was admitted to the Lancaster General Hospital one week ago today, with the hope of letting her pancreas get some rest. She continues to experience the stabbing knife abdominal pain after she eats and drinks, so it was good to be in a place where she was getting enough IV liquids and some help managing the pain.
Notable events in this trip to the hospital included one crazy roommate who had the lights on all night and the TV blaring. It was rather obnoxious. Thankfully, after that experience, Becky was transferred to her own room that had a beautiful view of the city. As usual, there was a mix of characters attending to her medical needs. The shining star amidst them all was her nurse named Amy, who was divinely assigned to Becky’s room for three of the days she was there, and was going to be moving to a new position in the hospital the next week (she’ll be working in the O.R. instead). Anyways, Amy, is the epitome of a gentle and competent nurse. She brightened the room whenever she was there, she was always a step ahead of her patients’ needs, and no task was below her. We were all thankful for Amy’s care, and hope that she can be a role model for many young, new nurses in her field!
All in all, Becky was in the hospital for 6 days.
Becky was determined to get out of the hospital because she had a big appointment scheduled with Dr. Singh at Johns Hopkins yesterday (Tuesday). Dr. Singh wanted to meet in person to go over the results of the test she sent away for over six weeks ago now. After making it through the maze of buildings, as well as being part of a fire drill while we were sitting in the waiting room (Everyone - doctors, security guards, visitors, and even a cart of lab rats - had to wait outside until it was over!), we got to see Dr. Singh.
Dr. Singh’s news was that the next step is for Becky to get an ERCP. This is the procedure she had originally scheduled back in February, but got postponed on account of doing the genetic testing. Well, the ERCP is back on the calendar again for April 9th. She will most likely be in the hospital for a few days following that procedure.
That is the news for now. I’m sure she’ll be updating again after she has the ERCP.
Also, I just want to say something that she would never say about herself… Becky handles being in the hospital and having people poking her and waking her up all the time with the greatest grace. It is amazing that amidst the excruciating pain that she is in, she is kind and thankful towards all who come to her bedside. She is beautiful even in times of great weakness, and even in the most unfashionable of hospital gowns! (We were talking about how there has got to be a market for prettier hospital gown wear….any entrepreneurs out there want to go for that?). At any rate, I only hope I can exhibit that level of graciousness if I am ever confronted with such trials! Not that this is new information, but she’s amazing!
Prayer from Sarah for Becky:
God, with your infinite power, please, please, PLEASE re-draw the boundary lines around Becky so that they may fall in pleasant places. Freedom from pain. A renewed body. RESTORED HOPE. So that her lips can sing praises to you again… In Jesus Name. Amen.
Prayer from Becky for Jack:
Dear loving and merciful Lord, please infuse Jack with your strength, encouragement, comfort and peace. May Jack be cocooned in love and support by those around him while he takes cares of his hurting wife. In Jesus Name. Amen.
Final news and a praise to God – my GI doctor from the hospital in Lancaster, Dr. Harberson, called and gave me his cell phone number and asked that I call him. Jack called him Friday morning. Dr. Harberson fought the insurance company for denying my latest hospital stay and as a result the insurance company has agreed to cover my stay. Hallelujah! In addition, Dr. Harberson is incredibly compassionate to the place I am at – “no quality of life”. He spoke with Dr. Singh (the Johns Hopkins doctor) and was better able to explain the situation. It may not sound that impressive or major, but after Dr. Singh on Tuesday and Dr. Bethards (my gastropersis doctor at Hershey on Thursday) saying everything so matter of fact, it feels like the best day in a while when a doctor can show emotion on the phone and be upset at the situation and express the awfulness of it. Today (Saturday) has been a brighter day. I am thankful for each ray of light that enters this dark season.
Agape love,
Becky